do not allow your doubts to creep into your conversations; have faith; be peaceful; be as patient as the Lord permits; God grant me peace.
what do you do when you love some thing, and you want some thing, and it is there but you are too afraid to go for it? you say, I trust in you my Lord, that the reason why I want this, is because of you.
a world of words,
cooler than air,
often a hell,
for those in despair,
like I, in those moments when,
everything seems so swell.
The past is the past. That is all.
What will tomorrow’s weather bring,
What will the weather bring,
Tomorrow when…yes, tomorrow,
How am I to track every thing?
Thought I’d dance this night away,
While yesterday I yearned to sing,
Today my studies are still unfinished,
My anxiousness is lingering.
I’ve done what ought to be done,
What I lost before has been won,
But what of tomorrow; what will it bring?
Imagine if we have no sun.
Last night I was going to call myself a Deist.
I felt distant from my emotions and from the person I was becoming over the last few weeks.
I told myself that I was being too emotional, too irrational, and too spiritual. What I needed was for someone to bring me back down to earth. I needed to be more r-e-a-l-i-s-t-i-c.
So I began thinking more with reason. I said to myself, Danny, you need to really organize your life. You need to stop being all over the place and focus on just one thing. But something strange happened at that moment.
I began to feel a coldness. The colors in my mind started to change. Instead of seeing in blues, yellows, and whites, everything became red. Red and light brown. Simultaneously, I became more intolerant. I felt ready to attack anybody who didn’t think like me, who didn’t see like me, and who I saw as weak. Even my political ideology changed in that moment. I noticed I started drifting further right from my liberal position.
In fact, I was turning into a Conservative. I started seeing myself as an individualist, a self-reliant egoistic libertarian conservative.
I was thinking with anger.
That’s when I realized I was in the wrong. My ego got hold of me, and I had to let it go. So I did. That’s when the blues and yellows came back. That’s when I felt human again.
“No man is fit to judge another, for no man is nearer to God than he who sees himself equal to others.”